Wednesday, September 16, 2009
My blog is moving thanks to the wonderful talents of Daniel D! God has blessed us with such talented friends, thanks Dessingers for all your time, effort and help with the new blog. I love it! Hope I do it justice and that everyone enjoys taking a peak into our lives.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
I most certainly do not have a precious 10 month old son now because if that was the case, that would mean I have neglected my poor lil' blog for over a month... Surely not, Not Me!
And, I most certainly did not take that 10 month old to a wedding this past Saturday because my parents were going and JB was out of town so there were no sitters available. I would not wake my son up from his nap to go to a wedding, nope, Not Me! And, even if I was dumb enough to do so, I wouldn't sit towards the front and look at him with pride because he had fallen back asleep right before the ceremony started. And the bride will not forever be stuck with the memory of my precious child, on video forever, screaming to the top of his lungs because he suddenly woke up and decided he wanted to nurse as the pastor (same one who did my wedding!) tried to start her ceremony. I was not that mother at the wedding, Not Me!
To boot, my child- at only a few weeks old- did not have his first diaper accident on the mother of the above mentioned bride when we took him to his first baby shower, nope, Not Mine! Wow, do we owe this family...
Sunday, after the wedding when I asked mom if she was embarrassed by Harper's behavior, my own son's grandmother definitely did not reply, "Yes, mortified, let's not talk about it, try to forget!" We wouldn't be that embarrassed, nope, Not Us!
I did not agree to work every afternoon this week while JB is out of town. And, even if I had agreed to do so, I wouldn't have spent the whole afternoon w/ wonderful patients missing my precious little boy, wondering how working moms do it everyday. Nope, Not Me!
Finally, this will make you glad I went to work today and left someone else in charge of Harper... I did not win the "Worst Mom of the Year" award this past weekend by loosing Harper, nope, Not Me! I mean, I know he is fast and can go places quickly and get into anything he wants to these days. So, I would never let him out of my site, nope, Not Me! And, I certainly didn't find him in the garage (on his way out) when I had left him in the living room to play while I grabbed some clothes from my room. I wouldn't have an infant in a house with the door and the garage door open because our AC was out, Not Me! Surely I would watch him closely if I was doing something so dumb. I wouldn't turn to my mom in a panic when I saw no sign of him in the living room and ask, "Where is Harper?!" And, when we frantically went searching to find him in the garage eating insulation, probably on his way to the road, mom wouldn't reply, "Do not tell JB about this, you'll never hear the end of it!" And, I most certainly wouldn't blog about it. Nope, Not Me!
Happy Monday, hop on over to MckMama's blog and join the fun!
Monday, July 20, 2009
He does not snort and cough at me everytime I walk by, letting me know that his throat is just a little parched and he would like to nurse now, nope, not my child!
And, he certainly doesn't yell at me and smack the table with his hands in public restaurants if I don't feed him food or ice fast enough, nope, not my child!
When I sit him in front of the window in our living room and walk away, I don't come back in everytime to find him standing (pulled up on the window seal) yelling and frustrated at our fat basset hounds for not running around and entertaining him, nope, not my child!
We didn't have two people mistake him for a girl this past week. And, one lady did not carry on a ten minute conversation with me about how he was the perfect little girlfriend for her little boy. And, I did not avoid correcting the lady to tell her he was a boy and wasn't going to be anybody's girlfriend! Nope, not my child! I was praying to avoid embarrassing her, and hoping very badly JB wouldn't walk over and interrupt our conversation asking me to "hand him to him" or if he could "take him" or to tell Harper, "Hey buddy!"
He wasn't perfect and sleeping for 4-5 hour stretches at a time the other night when he joined me at a birth (JB, mom, dad and ALL baby-sitters were out of town at the same time!), only to wake up while the mom was pushing, deciding he needed to eat right then. Nope, not my child!
*Big thanks to Aunt Marcy for walking with me!
While adjusting a client today on a home visit, I did not have a colleague drive my car around outside the client's house to keep my napping child asleep. And, when he awoke, my colleague and I most certainly did not keep my child entertained and semi happy at the client's house by giving him paper to eat, nope, not my child!
And, on this photo shoot, he did not almost eat a dead worm. Nope, not my child!, who has so much to teach me about the adventures of raising boys (oh joy!).
Finally, he most definitely is not the cutest boy in the world, and we definitely don't love him with ALL of our hearts, now do we?! Nope, not our child! How could we be this blessed?! Happy Nine Months, Precious Boy!!
Monday, June 15, 2009
While my in-laws were visiting this past weekend, we most certainly did not eat out every single meal. I was not a horrible hostess, not cooking a single meal, Nope, Not Me! Precisely, I was a good enough hostess to cook them one homemade meal, a meal that was supposed to go to a friend's house who had just had a baby... That meal didn't make it there w/ the storms we had, it ended up as our one home cooked meal :)
In this lovely Texas heat, I did not find myself so parched while out running errands that I drank (guzzled rather) water from Harper's new sippy cup. Nope, Not Me! And, I most certainly did not duck down in my car to drink from said cup so as to not be seen by drivers in the next lane, Nope, Not Me!
And, I have definitely not become that mom that makes airplane noises and pretends to eat my child's mashed up vegetables in attempts to get him to love food and stop nursing so much/often, Nope, Not Me! I make fun of those moms.
Last weekend, I did not recruit my friends and family to help me take down the old, flowered wallpaper donated to the house by the lovely old lady who used to live here and repaint the entire house in a day and a half because I had a baby shower to throw on Sunday. Who would decide to redecorate an entire home with a 7 month old baby in a day?! Not Me!
I did not opt to nurse my child in church on Sunday because it was the only option to keep him quiet during a very important service, who bribes their child with food to keep them silent? Not Me!
And, my child's ability to use the potty instead of his diaper at 7 months old was most certainly not the discussion everyone was having at a good friend's husband's funeral this weekend. That would be really inappropriate, and I would not find myself at the center of that discussion, Nope, Not Me!
This morning at work after sharing that I made an awesome green smoothie with goat's milk kefir for breakfast, I was not told that I am a "hippie without the dreads", Nope, Not Me!
So there you have it, Not Me! Monday... Hop on over to MckMama's site and join the fun: http://www.mycharmingkids.net/
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
And, speaking of lettuce wraps, about a month ago I found a new all time favorite lettuce wrap recipe. It has become my new favorite meal to bring to new moms; if you are expecting a baby and I am signed up to bring you meals, expect this one. We love it around here! Plus, it's great to have another recipe we can use when doing the cleanse. It is a little more work than the crockpot, but totally worth it.
Monday, May 11, 2009
After being so excited that Stellan was finally home from the hospital and anxiously awaiting MckMama resuming Not Me! Mondays, I did not miss participating in her return Not Me! Monday last week, nope, Not Me!
Last week while we were at a friend's house, Harper most certainly did not poop down the front of my white shirt, after I took him to the bathroom and was talking and playing with him before putting his diaper back on (I thought he was done, wrong). And, I most certainly did not forget to pack myself a change of shirt. So I did not proceed to try to wash my shirt in her sink with hand soap before returning to socialize. And, I was not super happy that we were eating guacamole for lunch so I could simply hold Harper, positioning to hide the lovely poop marks, and after eating blame the faint green on dropped guacamole, nope, never, Not Me!
I most certainly did not miss the recognition of moms and prayer for moms at church on Saturday for my first Mother's Day because I was in the nursing room feeding Harper, nope, Not Me! And, I didn't think to myself while in there, "Well isn't this appropriate?!" Nope, Not Me!
I didn't keep turning and looking for MY mom all weekend anytime someone wished me a "Happy Mother's Day" because I definitely don't feel old enough or like I am in the stage of life to be celebrating my very own Mother's Day, nope, surely Not Me!
After finally setting up the co-sleeper where it belongs, next to the bed, and cleaning out all the junk in it so Harper could have a place to sleep, the ironing board has not become the new storage device in our bedroom. I would never let that happen, and I most certainly wouldn't walk by it for 3 weeks, thinking how badly I need to clean it up, nope, Not Me!
I am not the wife who would laugh hysterically at my husband for doing his hair, before work, using a towel that Harper had peed on. And, I certainly would not think to myself after figuring out that he had done this, "Good, maybe he will finally learn only to use the towels hanging on the rack!" Nope, Not Me!, that would be really mean.
Surely, I am not blessed enough to have married such an awesome man, who treated me to the best first Mother's Day ever yesterday. Not Me! And, should I feel guilty that he spent all his free time on Saturday making me a scrapbook for Mother's Day? As if that is not wonderful enough, he also bought me a gorgeous opal and pink Sapphire (Harper's birthstones) necklace to include with the book. I would have never imagined getting to enjoy spending a great day with my family yesterday, and I couldn't be more grateful for my mom after these past few months spending a little time "in her shoes" as a mom myself... Nope, Not Me!
So there you go... Hope you'll join MckMama and everyone else in the fun of Not Me! Monday
Stay tuned to my blog, and hopefully this week I'll have an exciting announcement to make : )
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
So what did we do with a fever? Simple, let the body work. God is so incredible, and the way He made our bodies just amazes me. And, I am so sad to see that we constantly try to change the perfect vessel He has made. I am thankful for fevers; and, I am especially thankful that fevers come on with teething. Why? Well, if we didn't have fevers during teething, it would be much easier for us to get sick. See, the tooth has to erupt through the gum line, so this causes a series of potentially dangerous events to happen if there wasn't a protective fever set in place by our amazing Creator. When the tooth comes through, the gums are open and allow things to enter the body that normally wouldn't come through an otherwise closed system. Also, there is generalized inflammation in the face (sinuses) and ears as the teeth come through. So, without a fever, we are more susceptible to ear infections and colds and sinus infections at this time. And, mucous production increases to wash out bacteria during this susceptible time for infection. Of course I can totally understand after going through this- and struggling as I watched my precious baby deal with pain- why parents would jump for the Tylenol and Motrin. But, this simply wasn't an option or consideration for us. Why? Well, there are several reasons. For one, I trust that our bodies are perfectly created to function perfectly 100% of the time. I don't want to mess with what God has created for a purpose. If I choose to decrease his fever, I lengthen the time he has to spend not feeling good. His body turns the fever up high to kill off whatever doesn't need to be in his body, and if I turn down the temperature, his body will pause and then try to turn it back up again. Or worse, it will be more susceptible to infection, possibly acquire an infection and then have to take extra time to kill it off. So, why not just spend some miserable time letting the fever do its good, and then it will be over and we will be back to normal and happy in no time. Secondly, have you looked into the ingredients in Tylenol and Motrin? I am not going to stress out my child's developing liver and cause potential heart complications and stomach bleeding by giving my child Acetaminophen or Ibuprofen just so he can cool down his elevated temperature and be happy. And, I am certainly not going to give my child corn syrup, sugar (sorbitol) or food dyes! Isn't this one of the primary reasons why I breastfeed, to keep junk out of my child?! Did you know that 1 teaspoon of sugar decreases immunity for at least 10 hours? And, there are tons of side effects (like killing off brain cells!) when it comes to artificial and alcohol sugars so don't think that flavoring the medicines with these or going "sugar free" is a better answer either. And, corn syrup is one of the worst things you can put in your body, much less your baby's (another reason why I am so glad we breastfeed and don't do formula- since corn syrup is one of the primary ingredients in formulas), so I certainly wouldn't be giving him a medication with this ingredient just so he could feel better. Furthermore, considering sugar is one guaranteed way to decrease and stress out the immune system, it's ironic that these medications all contain it in one form or another. Isn't it just great that some of them include Splenda or sucralose instead? Do you know what makes up Splenda/sucralose? Simple- sugar and chlorine. Would I give my child chlorine? NO! So why would I give him some chlorine with sugar on a day he is miserable with fever? Beats me... Probably because parents either don't read labels, or they don't know what the ingredient is on the label, or worst yet- they trust the doctor who told them to give it to their child w/ a blind faith. No thanks, I'd rather have the miserable child with fever than these meds! You won't find me giving you the popular opinion that God gifted doctors with wisdom and knowledge to invent these wonderful meds. Nope, I think it's simply another thing we have invented to bypass God's plan and make our lives easier but not better.
There are many things we have to achieve through hard work, and health is one of them. Know what else I did not do? I did not sit around taking my child's temperature with a thermometer. Why? Do I need to see a number to tell me my child has fever? Nope, I can see he does by watching how he does not act like himself and feeling how hot his skin is to the touch. Harper feeds off of my emotions, and what better emotion to make one sick than stress? And what would stress me out more than seeing a climbing number on the thermometer? No thanks! Did I worry about the fever? Yes, my main concern was keeping him hydrated and getting him well. So, we stayed chilled out at home. I stripped him down to his diaper, and we laid in bed skin to skin and nursed as much as possible. The result? The fever is almost totally gone, he is getting back to his happy, active self, and I have a healthier child because I let his body go with what it was designed perfectly to do best- work! Fever is a time of detox and helps rid the body of toxins and keep toxins out that haven't yet entered, and studies show it decreases cancer risks too. Therefore, I may not have enjoyed the couple of days with an unhappy child, but I am so thankful that the Power that made the body can and does heal the body, and we come out on the other side better!!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
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Monday, March 16, 2009
Last Wednesday on our way home from Kansas City, in frigid temperatures, I did not push our cart full of luggage through the rental car parking lot uphill with a backpack on my back and a diaper bag on one arm and a purse on the other while Jim Bob laughed at me as he watched me do this from the warm temperature of the waiting room as he held sleeping Harper and NO bags, nope, Not Me!
We did not pack 7 pieces of luggage for 2 adults and 1 baby, nope, Not Us! And, I was totally prepared that traveling with a baby now meant having to pack the whole house, so we'd be prepared :)
I most certainly did not almost pee on myself as I was laughing so hard while pushing this luggage and watching Jim Bob simply watch me, no, Not Me!
I did not keep from peeing on myself by visualizing myself having to ride all the way home on an airplane while nursing and holding my child, freezing in my wet urine smelling pants, nope, Not Me!
I do not have a fear of peeing on myself because it's something I used to struggle with all the way up into high school anytime I laughed too hard, and in junior high school I was most certainly not nicknamed "The Pee Queen", nope, Not Me!
*You would think someone would have taught me those great Kegel exercises we learn in pregnancy yoga earlier on in life!!*
I did not put Harper in his swing this week so that I could eat some of my delicious coconut milk ice-cream and use both hands to do so, and I most certainly did not finish off the entire tub of deliciousness all on my own in one sitting, nope, Not Me!
I do not have a pile of dirty cloth diapers laying on a trash can lid in my halway because I am too lazy to get the trash can and put the liner in it and the diapers in it, nope, Not Me!
I am not doing all my laundry at my mom's house this week because my washer is broken for the second time this year, nope, Not Me! And, I most certainly didn't break it by loading it too full and allowing a knob to break off for the second time, nope, Not Me!
I did not catch myself thinking, "Just move him to play elsewhere, it'll dry, he'll never know." when Harper peed on Jim Bob's side of the bed this week, nope, Not Me!
*And, yes, my conscience got the best of me and those sheets did make it to the wash at mom's! JB is so lucky I am honest to a fault!*
I did not explain to my sister's new boyfriend (of one week) what a "froobie" is, nope, Not Me!
So there you have it, I love reading the "Not Me! Mondays" so this week I decided to jump in and participate... Kids give you TONS of material to work w/, especially in our busy house. I hope you'll pop over to http://www.mycharmingkids.net/ and participate too... I promise you'll live to tell about it, and I'll enjoy reading it :)
Besides, I needed to blog because I know you all miss me when JB is on here being all spiritual :)
Sunday, March 15, 2009
"Praise be to the Lord, for he has heard my cry for mercy. The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. The Lord is the strength of his people, a fortress of salvation for his anointed one. Save your people and bless your inheritance; be their shepherd and carry them forever."Psalm 28:6-9
My favorite part of that passage is the second sentence: "The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped" That's one of the most profound pieces of scripture I've read in awhile. It basically sums up this past year for me. God has brought me through alot this past year. I've been at the very top, feeling like there was nothing God couldn't do through me, and I've felt like I was at the very bottom...wondering if God had forgot about me but trusting Him that His word is true and that He would never "leave nor forsake me". God has been teaching me about the strength of my faith in Him. He's allowed me to be tested this year harder than I ever remember being tested. But I have learned after all this year that my God is faithful! He is my strength and my shield and nothing the enemy throws as me can prosper with Him as my front and rear guard.
I am humbled by what God has shown me and what He has accomplished through me. I know that I don't deserve any of what I receive but because of the blood of my savior I can stand boldly and make my requests to heaven. What an absolute honor!!!!
Lord, search my heart and make it clean. Break my heart for what breaks yours, everything I have for your kingdom's cause.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Take our health as an example (Since this is what I teach and deal with on a daily basis). Everyone wants a formula for their health. "Doc, tell me what to do to ______ (you add it in...be healthy, lose weight, gain muscle, get pregnant, be smarter, be stronger..etc)" We've totally missed the point and are making everything way too complicated. There are only 2 reasons why we get sick...only two. Because God has PERFECTLY created the body to handle every circumstance and every contingency....only 2 things can happen: 1. Toxicity or 2. Deficiency
You either A: Become toxic in things you shouldn't have in your system (toxic thoughts, processed foods, caffeine, smoking, artificial sweeteners, plastics, xenoestrogens, etc) driving your perfectly created physiology away from normal function, OR B: You are deficient (lacking) in things your body has to have to function (water, nutrients, rest, stress-relief, exercises, spinal motion, essential fats, etc) and that in turn is forcing your body into a state of sickness and illness in order to adapt to whichever of the two (or both) that's happening in our bodies. So if we can figure out which one of the two are happening and correct them naturally and allow our perfect bodies to return to perfect normal function, then our bodies can correct what's gone wrong. That's not to say that there is a point of no return at times because of the damaged caused by years of abuse and misuse.
What about with marriage?? We now have availabe every kind of marriage program under the sun to try and give us a "formula" for having a great, productive, godly marriage. "Respect him so he'll love you and he'll love you so you can respect him!" "Tell your wife 3 things good about her every day..." "Tell your husband all the ways you appreciate him exactly 5 times a week.." And on and on and on and on. Isn't marriage supposed to be a mirror image of Christ and the church?? So if we as couples and husbands and wives focus on God and His love and listen to His direction, and then put our spouses needs and desires before our own all the time....where's the difficulty??? I'm not saying Cindy and I have this perfect set-up, or that we have it all figured out because we don't and we're human and learning just like everyone else...but God has been teaching us and guiding us lately on simplifying everything about our relationship with Him and every other aspect of our lives because most of our stress comes from the complexity we try to add in to each of our situations. Maybe marriages are hard because of selfishness, I don't know. I know I was extremely selfish when Cindy and I got married and with God's love and help and her patience, I grew in that area and because I love her more than I love the air that I breathe, I'll do anything and everything to make sure that she is taken care of and cared for and loved on not because I expect anything in return, but because THAT'S THE WAY GOD DESIGNED IT!!! Doesn't it say "Husbands, love your wives as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her."????
Weren't the two greatest commandments that God gave the disciples 1. "Love the Lord your God with ALL your heart, mind, and soul." and 2. "Love your neighbor as yourself"?? What does this tell us about God? THAT'S HE'S SIMPLISTIC!! Everything comes out of our love for Him first, and then our love for other people over our own agendas or wants and desires. If we ultimately love God as much as we claim we do and as much as He commands, then out of that the only reaction is to love everyone around us like He does because that is a natural overflow of the love of Christ inside you. And if you're loving everyone around you, you CAN NOT be selfish at the same time!! Think about a world, no wait, think about a Church that lived this way and worked off of these principles and just imagine all that God could and would do through His people!! You can't imagine it because the possiblities are described by only one word: Miraculous!
I don't know everything, but I've learned alot, and I'm continuing to learn more everyday as I do because the Spirit continues to reveal His heart and His direction to me and I strive everyday to deny myself and say "Yes" when I hear Him because I know that when I do things under my own power, I always mess it up. I'm tired of not doing things right because I'm selfish and want my own way...I'm ready to see what God will do with a broken, open vessel that's listening for for his voice and ready to step forward in faith into all that He's chosen for me and my family.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Well, I can vividly remember adjusting this six month old little girl in my office repeatedly for the same subluxation. As I was going through with the mom and trying to figure out what could be causing this, she asked me if it could be the way she was "potty-ing her". You should have seen my face: potty-ing her?! What?!? She is six months old, how do you potty her? What is potty-ing her?? After her explanation, and doing some research, I remember coming home and laughing to Jim Bob. "You won't believe what these crazy parents are doing! This is insane!" Little did I know I would eat my words one day.
Then, I went to a Holistic Moms Network Meeting a few months before I was pregnant w/ Harper (the meetings are held at my office). It was interesting to hear about this technique called "Elimination Communication", and I was very curious. So, I bought a book to research more called Diaper Free Baby by Christine Gross-Loh. I no longer would make fun of families doing EC because the research in the book and at the meeting made total sense! We decided we would try it when we had Harper.
As I shared our plans with my parents, my mother made fun of me, "Let me know how that goes!" EC is not about "potty training" an infant. There is no training involved, but rather it is all about communication. Something so rare here in our disconnected society is actually the norm in other societies. And, I loved in the book the part where she talks about the fact that we consider our dogs more intelligent than our children. After all, why is it that a puppy should be able to use the bathroom in the proper place at only a few months old, but we let our children go in their diapers until well past the age of 2 years old? Doesn't it make sense that when your baby is hungry or sleepy you know and read their signs and signals? Of course you do; and, learning their signs for needing to go to the bathroom is just as simple. That is what we do with Harper, and when he signals that he needs to go, we take him to the bathroom. Up until 4 weeks old, because I was so overwhelmed as a new mom, I just watched him closely to learn his signals. And, I would change his diaper immediately when he went. Then, after 4 weeks, I started taking him to the bathroom. I am not upset if I miss and he goes in his diaper (the difference in EC versus potty training). And, I have no expectations. I am just trying to listen to my child's needs and not let him grow so attached to his diaper that he misses it one day when it's completely gone. The result? I will often go two weeks without changing a poopy diaper. On average, I only change about 3 wet (pee) diapers a day. Before doing EC, I was changing about 10-20 poopy diapers a day. He wakes up from his naps dry, and often will wake up from sleeping overnight dry too. Once they know there is another option rather than the diaper, they prefer it and will choose it when they can. After all, who would really- if given a choice- choose to go to the bathroom on themselves and sit in it for hours?! EC just makes sense. And, it is not anymore time consuming than changing a diaper would be. Not to mention, you will have to take the time to take your child to the bathroom eventually- whether you do it early on with EC or later when you potty train them. What about my doubting mom? Well, she now takes Harper to the bathroom too... As does JB and his parents. Everyone is in shock that it works! And, every time he goes for mom, she says, "Cha-ching!" EC has saved us so much $$! Many of my Facebook friends asked me to video him going to the bathroom. I am sure his dad would gladly- you know if you have seen all the crazy pics he posts (poor Harper)- but I thought that would be really mean.... Can you imagine someone showing him that when he is older: "Look what your mom put on the Internet!" However, even though I won't volunteer Harper's pics online, you can find out more info here and watch a great news clip video here. Feel free to ask me questions in the comment section. But, all I have to say now is we have tried it, and it works!!! Never say never!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
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Sunday, January 4, 2009
"Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, that you and your descendants might live! Choose to love the LORD your God and to obey him and commit yourself to him, for he is your life. Then you will live long in the land the LORD swore to give your ancestors Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob." (Deuteronomy 30:19-20)
One day back in the fall I was driving a patient (now good friend) of mine over to Dallas to see another doctor there. He did not have the means to go and he needed the evaluation and so I drove him myself. As we drove there and back and talked the entire way about our lives and what God had done in and through us and what He was currently doing.....we were both really shocked and amazed at where our choices had brought us. At any one point along our lives and along our paths, we could have made a different choice and everything would've turned out so differently for us. It was the sum of our choices to this point that had brought us to that day and had brought us together to help heal him of the physical ailments he is dealing with (also dealing with choices!!).
Like in Deuteronomy, God offers us the choice every single day between "blessings and curses". That's why it is sooo vital that you are walking daily with Him and being still and listening to His sometimes barely audible voice to give you the direction you so desperately need in the decisions you are faced with every day that you wake up. Walking with God doesn't mean you will be perfect and never make a wrong decision or choose the wrong thing, but it does mean that more often than not you will know which choice will bring you God's blessings and which won't. This may be the biggest problem with the whole idea of God, the Holy Spirit, and the christian life.....the simplicity of it. I think (I know for alot of people I know) that for some, they want it to be much more complex and alot harder to figure out than just saying, "YES!" to Him every day and listening to a God who loves them unconditionally, with only one string attached: saying "Yes" to his Son and giving him lordship over your life. The other thing that is probably so hard is that choice to give up ALL of yourself and to give it ALL to Him so He can bless you and He can use you to spread His love to whomever He chooses.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths."
He wants ALL of our hearts and wants us to give him the reigns and the control of ALL of our ways and situations. But He doesn't force that on us!! Isn't that amazing!?!? The God of the entire universe, who spoke this world into being with a word, who parted the sea for the Israelites to walk across on dry land, who walked on the water to calm a raging storm, who turned water into wine to show his majesty and glory, who sent His Son to be an example for us and to be a sacrifice for all the sins we've committed or will commit, that same God gives me the option NOT to choose His will or to give Him all of me not because He is sadistic or doesn't care....but because He loves us too much to force us to follow Him! Wow!! I think it is so simple, but so absolutely perfect that it's impossible to fathom of our own strength and vision and we have to allow Him to touch our eyes and our hearts to see what He sees and feel what He feels. When you do that though, get ready....the emotions you feel are indescribable. The joy is unbelievable, but the pain is unbearable. I've never cried harder than when I asked God to show me what He feels when I touch people. The pain that people are going through as they choose to operate on their own wisdom (Prov 3:7), and the remorse they feel over choices they made in the past rocked my world.
I think even greater than the fact that God gives us the choice to follow Him or not with our daily decisions, is the fact that when we make the wrong choice.....He immediately forgives us and loves us anyway!!! This is not a license to choose poorly knowing He'll still be there because He knows our hearts, but rather a safely net to know that if we make a wrong step on this high wire act of life and we fall, He'll be there to catch us and restore us if we let Him.
So go check out the movie "Slumdog Millionaire" and see the picture of two brothers growing up under the same bad circumstances and same hardships, but each making different choices and how they turn out. It was a great parenting lesson for me. Really meditate on His word though and ask Him to show you clearly what your choices are....it's when you are closest to Him that your path is the clearest. He never stears us in the wrong direction, we just stop looking at His map!